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The Journal
Song: Longing    Artist: Drown

I feel ugly, I’m so tired

I stare out at the stars, reflecting on the ocean. My body aches, sometimes, holding this very quill is agony.

 Trying to make it all make more sense

With a heavy heart, and weary eyes I try and put into words what I know to be true. How do you tell the people you love, you are dying....more importantly, that you will die, very soon. Destined to become dust and forgotten and there is nothing that anyone can do to stop it.

I ask you to hold me

Hold me like never before

I might break

I don’t know how much more I can take

I ask you

I will miss her, I miss her now. She and I have been slightly distant with one another, as the chaos that surrounds us take down different paths. While saddened by this, I am also grateful, she won’t see me die.

It’s getting to me again

I know you have never seen me like this

It’s getting to me again

You don’t want to see me like this

The time has come. I can not postpone the inevitable any longer. My body aches as a remainder of my promise, she is calling to me now. I have dallied too long. I have a job to do. Reggie will be coming with me, not like I could make him stay here in the Vale. If you come across a lone tiger, way out in the wastes of the Outlands, it will be him.

I’m spitting up life again

I’m feeling it all again

Choking

I don’t want you to see me like this

I am saddened I will miss out on so many things. Largely my absence has gone unnoticed, as I stayed in my room here in Grom’gol. My apprentice weds soon, I will not be around to see it. I sent them some money, I have put my estate in order.

One of the grunts told me yesterday, that I had the look of a man that was running away. No, I said, I am embracing what it is that haunts me. There may be a way to change this, but I don’t have the energy or fortitude to try anymore.

 Lay your hands on me

Your skin is warm

You could heal me - Heal me

Just show me there is more

I close my eyes, and think back to happier times, blissful nights, and warm, sunny days. These will be the moments I treasure as I pass on. Nothing and no one will take them from me.

I know you have never seen me like this

I don’t want you to see me like this

Choking

I don’t want you to see me like this

I don’t want you to see me like this

I don’t want you to see me like this

 I never wanted any of this

I will see you soon mother.